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 Name : Ayan Kumiko
Nick : Maya
Age : ....
D.O.B : ....
Sign : Sagittarius
Email : mafabunan@yahoo.com
YM : class_cuties
Friendster : kuroitenshi15@yahoo.com

// [A]dores.. *

 anime.
manga.
j-music.
cars.
racing.
drift.
art.
music.
house m.d.

// [L]oathes.. *

 jackasses.
snakes.
stuck-up brats.
spiders.
ampalaya.

// [L]inks.. *

 My multiply.
Fanfictions.
My livejournal.

// [W]ishlist.. *

 nintendo ds.
make a manga.
drift my car.
produce an awesome computer graphic design.
See l'arc~en~ciel perform live.

// [T]agboard.. *

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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
|4/13/2005 01:45:00 PM|

I'm here right now in Bicol, visiting my relatives before I leave for the States. haay... it's so boring in here. There really is nothing to do. There is no computer nor cable tv to whisk the time away. I'm really itching to go back to Manila already. We're supposed to go back today but due to some things that my parents have to do, it has been moved to thursday because they still have tp go to vinzons. Darn it! The only thing that we do in here is to eat and then to sleep and we do nothing to burn all the fats that we've taken in. That's why I feel like I've gained a lot of weight which is really annoying because I really want to slim down. (Reason: It's damn hard to look for clothes!!!) I don't know how my parents can last in here. But to think that they have lot of things to do in here it's no wonder they can last long but if I last one more day in here, I'll go crazy!!! Well anyway, on to other things. I don't know if what I did last night is becasue of sheer boredom or of the utmost stupidity. I called Romar on his cellphone. Why? I don't know, I just felt like doing it. Maybe it's because I remembered the times when I would call him on his cell when I'm away from home. I was really nervous and I have no idea what i would say once he answers. His voice is still the same: cool and silky. (The hell?! Where did that come from???) Anyway, he asked me why I called and the only thing that I could come up was a lame, "I just wanted to say goodbye." All he said was "oh" then after that we hanged up. I was surprised to find my hand shaking and tears formed on my eyes. When I went to bed, that's the time when tears finally fell down. But actually, I don't know why I cried. I was suddenly confused to who is it that I really love: the one that can easily make me smile or the one that can easily make me frown. My head was jumbled up and I was torn between the two. But at the end, I realized that it's not Romar that I love. I only realized this now, when I said goodbye to him, it has an underlying meaning. One that means I'm finally over him and I've moved on with my life. I have finally let him go.


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