// [P]rofile.. *

 Name : Ayan Kumiko
Nick : Maya
Age : ....
D.O.B : ....
Sign : Sagittarius
Email : mafabunan@yahoo.com
YM : class_cuties
Friendster : kuroitenshi15@yahoo.com

// [A]dores.. *

 anime.
manga.
j-music.
cars.
racing.
drift.
art.
music.
house m.d.

// [L]oathes.. *

 jackasses.
snakes.
stuck-up brats.
spiders.
ampalaya.

// [L]inks.. *

 My multiply.
Fanfictions.
My livejournal.

// [W]ishlist.. *

 nintendo ds.
make a manga.
drift my car.
produce an awesome computer graphic design.
See l'arc~en~ciel perform live.

// [T]agboard.. *

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Monday, April 04, 2005
|4/04/2005 07:12:00 AM|

wah~! it's sweltering hot in here that you feel like you're going to melt! wooo... i want to go submerge myself in water. unfortunately, we don't have a bathtub and i can't go to a pool since i don't have someone to accompany me. sare and tensai are taking care of their school grades, the panda-jins, uly and the others will start their class on monday plus, we're going to bicol on tuesday. haay... i have a feeling of great apprehension on our departure. i'm afraid of what's going to happen once i arrive in US. there are many precious things to me that i will leave behind. if there is only a way where i can somehow stay here... but i guess that would be useless since i didin't enroll for the summer class so if i stay here, i have nothing else to do and that would be a real bummer.

haay... i really wanted to go to school. now i know how it feels not to attend school. i feel envious of my classmates last wednesday when they enrolled and got there sections. they were happy and frustrated at the same time. all i could do was ask what their section is and smile a sad smile as i watch them talk about their classes. i feel left out. i feel that there's an invisible wall standing in between them and me. i feel like i don't belong in their world anymore. i suddenly feel alone... i know that they are still my friends no matter what but even though i know this fact, the feeling of being alone is still there. and one of the things that i hate is being alone.

i got my first taste of this last thursday while i was filing for my LOA. i was at school by myself, with the company of strangers all day. i know i already did this before but i guess i was so used to going to schol, meeting and seeing all my friends there. i told myself that i better get used to it because that is how my life is going to be like in US. haay...


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