Haay... I'm here in a land that I don't know anyone except for my relatives. It really sucks to be stuck in a place that you don't like. Not that I don't like being with my relatives here, it's just that I don't like the idea of being in America. But what can I do? I have to leave everything that I'm familiar with to go to a place where everything is foreign to me. I'm not used to people treating me as a foreigner, it's the other way around for me. But now those foreigners to me are the natives of this land. I really do wish to go back to the Philippines. Life here is really hard. There are no maids to do the chores for you. I do almost all of the chores here. I'm so not used to it. And I can't go anywhere without someone having to drive me around and I can't go to the places that I like any time unlike back home. Plus the fact that I don't have the money to spend on trivial things. Although I do have a PS2 but I only have one game because I couldn't buy another one. Another thing is the PC here is really outdated and I have yet to figure out a way to connect it to the net that's why I'm stuck writing this in another one's computer. And I miss all of my friends, especially nii-chan. I wonder if he misses me too... I haven't heard from them since last week when I suddenly called them. I wonder if nii-chan thinks of me too. There are times when I would suddenly feel really sad because I miss him very much and I want to hear or see him. When I hear the song Crazy for You, it always remind me of him and there are times that I become teary-eyed just hearing the song.i wonder how their summer class went. I hope that all of them are qualified to enter IN so I would still see them next year. Idon't know if I'm going to be able to come back and enroll this June. I'm being indecisive again. I want to go back to the Philippines but I also want to stay and work so I can save enough money to buy a car. But I want to see all of my friends and my brother and my cousins there. I feel really bore here because I have nothing to do but stay in the house that's the reason why I always think of them. Haay... I don't know what to choose but whichever prevails, I hope that I still see nii-chan when I come back. I wish with all my heart that he is the guy that I've been searching for. And I pray that he, my bro and my best friends are always safe.