it's official... i am an insoniac. i woke up at 3:30 am to go to the restroom and had been awake ever since. no matter what i try to do, i couldn't find sleep or rather, it's elusive to me. everytime that i'm about to finally doze off, something would happen like my muscles aching so i need to turn the other way, my back itching or nature calling. after an hour and a half of fruitless tossing and turning, i gave up my hopes of falling back to sleep and ended up in here. so, in between those times that i was trying to fall back to sleep, endless scenarios were running inside my head, mostly with "him" in it. and i also realized that i really shouldn't force myself to sleep when i'm not sleepy yet coz' i always end up waking up way too early. i should've just write down some drabbles last night or surfed the internet. but anyways, what's done is done and i'm already here. i hope that i can get some sleep later in the day although that is a bit doubtful since sare and i have some plans for today. i just don't know if we're going to push through with it. if not, then i'm going to grab the chance to get some of my well-deserved z's. alright, there's nothing much to write anymore. i'm going, ja!